The story about the big toe reminds me of Julie. She once shared that she had broken her toes twice. During the times she was completely disabled and unable to do anything, she deeply felt that she is God’s child, regardless of her actions or abilities.

Growing up with a materialistic widowed mother and spending most of my life in money-driven big cities, I equated my self-worth with my ability to achieve. I never had an injury that disabled me like Julie’s, and I can’t imagine how my mind might criticize me if I were unable to do anything. However, walking with God has taught me that many things that used to occupy my life are toxic and only serve the devil’s temptations.

I’ve learned to let go of my desire for worldly achievements. From the outside, it might seem like I’ve become a loser, and my mind criticizes me constantly. But only a faithful believer knows that serving God is the most diligent job in the world. Life requires eight hours a day for work, but faith requires 24/7. I love it and am willing to work hard to fight for God, the ultimate truth and freedom.

“I need the kind of love that is willing to fight” – from the song “Fighting For Me” by Riley Clemmons.

Serving God means I need to be a brave warrior. Brave enough like Jesus, willing to die for what I believe. And I want to be that brave and strong. 

I might lose some battles here and there, but I will never be a loser because God has already won the war for me.