I easily get frustrated when things aren’t perfect right away. Today’s Bible study was a great reminder that working harder isn’t the solution—patience is.

Growing up with a smartphone always in hand, I’ve lost the heart of patience, expecting instant feedback for everything. When the feedback is bad, I keep pushing until I get something good. I’ve recognized how harmful this is for my soul and for the people around me.

God taught me through nature that the day I plant the seed will never be the day I harvest the fruit. It takes time, often longer than I am willing to wait.

Yesterday, the sisters were talking about being a “warrior,” and I resonate deeply with that word. I have lots of energy to do things, and recently, I have been fighting for my patience.

My mind pushes me to stay busy to prove my achievements, believing that this makes me valuable and worthy of being loved. This has been my pattern my entire life. Doing things slowly and waiting is something I don’t know how to do. However, I have received so much help from many people recently which really helped me face this toxic pattern.

Meditation and journaling bring me peace, but they don’t channel my energy as effectively as physical activity does. 

My business partner got me a VR headset, and I’ve been using it for boxing for two weeks. Whenever I feel restless, I jump in and start punching hard, like a warrior. 

Every punch I throw, I imagine hitting the devil’s face. My sweet Lord has been showing up for me so much in VR. The app is quite edgy, with no Christian music for sure, but whenever I am punching through my impatience, the Lord makes sure I can hear Him through whatever song is playing.

“The devil is not going to win…”

“He is the only magic…”

I know that learning to be patient is the theme of my current season, and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get there.

Devil, you heard me! Whatever it takes.