Morning

I started watching the show “The Chosen.” I just finished season 1, my soul lights up during every episode. This is my first show about Jesus, and my heart rejoices in His character.

All the disciples kept asking questions because their hearts were swollen with fear. But Jesus showed them a new way to see, which is to focus on Him.

After Nicodemus met Jesus in secret and realized it was the real Messiah inviting him to join, he still decided not to follow Him.

As I grow older, I have more money, more friends, more responsibilities, and more social status I want to maintain. Just like Nicodemus, staying 100% dedicated to Jesus can become difficult and feel impossible sometimes!

But I don’t ever want to be like Nicodemus. The earthly things, and all the fear that I might lose or fail, should never be the reason I don’t go all in with Him.

And going all in with Him, just like the show portrays, might make people think I am a fool. But I would rather be a blissfully happy fool than a fearful smart head.

Father, I am ready to follow You with all my heart. Let all my fears shatter in Your light. Thank You for choosing me.

Afternoon

A few weeks ago, my husband and I met a new realtor from church, and we both really like her. We’ve signed a contract with her, and she has been incredibly helpful. Our dream of owning a property has been reignited.

There is a parcel we want to pursue at this point. I can hear my excited inner voice shouting loudly, “Hurry, talk to her and see what progress she has made!” But today, I didn’t follow my excitement. Instead, a new voice from my heart shouted, “How dare you tempt me with false hope?” The moment I heard this new voice, I was filled with surprise and joy.

I took a moment to ponder this new voice, and the deeper I delved into it, the more strength I received. The “good things” in my mind often make me overly excited, driving me to constantly push for progress. However, this same excitement has also led to many exhausting days and disappointments.

Today, I deeply realized that the “good things” I’ve pursued so relentlessly, either a nice car or a good job, and now a property. They are never the true good things. They change, they fade, and they break over time. So why should I waste so much brain power, time, and energy on temporary happiness that is bound to break. I see it now, they are all false hope. This new voice has led me to a new hope, the true good. The kind of goodness and treasure promised by God, unfading and everlasting. The kind of happiness that doesn’t diminish if I lose my job, and the kind of excitement I can have even if I never get my dream property.

It brought tears to my eyes to realize that God has given me His goodness and treasure since the day I was born. I can be happy anytime I allow myself to be. This is the true excitement I get to experience every day, and it will never fade. God’s love for me is unconditional, and He promises good things for His beloved children.