Today, my husband and I both felt quite dull and heavy for no specific reason. Just one of those days! I don’t like it since my natural state is happy and chirping. We took a nap in the afternoon, and it helped a little.

A post I saw on Facebook really stayed with me today:

“Many people want to be healed from one thing or another. They feel their faith is strong, so why not the healing? The question is – is your faith strong enough not to be healed?”

I am learning to shift my ambition from living a successful, loud, shiny life to a quiet life. It’s really hard! But my heart knows this is what the Lord wants for me.

Just like today, life is going to be boring, heavy, and not fun a lot of the time. I need to accept it and still enjoy it with all I have. I want my faith to be that strong, even if there is no healing for my problems, I still want to keep walking closely with God.

Oh Lord, how can I not want to be close to you? Everything I see will lose color, everything I hear will be forgotten, and everybody I love will turn to dust eventually. Only you can last, only the relationships you govern can be eternal.

My mood and desires swing like a clock, never stopping. This unstable flesh takes everything I have and consumes my soul. Only your presence can give me real peace and everlasting comfort. Lord, I beg you to take away all my dark addictions, restore my spirit, and light my heart. Let me live in peace and be a beacon of your love.