True Freedom

“True freedom comes when we no longer need to be special in other people’s eyes because we know we are loveable and good enough in Christ.” — Emotionally Healthy Spirituality

My heart overflows with joy as I read this; the truth of the message illuminates my entire world. True freedom is our birthright, a gift given by God freely and unconditionally, reserved for us in eternity. When our hearts are ready, we will receive it instantly. Isn’t this the best news we could ever imagine in all of history?

True Power

This morning, I did another yoga worship session and ended up breaking down in an ocean of tears. As I let go of my thoughts and body, I felt an amazing, powerful, and gentle energy enter me. It filled me so completely that my arms raised up by themselves, reaching for something high above. My eyes were closed, but I felt as if I were standing on a mountaintop. A strong bright light radiated from my broken heart, the cracks in my heart somehow empowered the light to cast further and wider.

In that moment, my soul was receiving so much healing, and I could feel that everything and everyone in my world were as broken as I was. The chair had broken legs, the blanket on the couch had holes, my husband was tired from work, and my friends were struggling with money…I felt the brokenness of everything in my world in my broken heart. Yet, in that divine moment, God was healing me and everything in my world. I couldn’t move, frozen in overwhelming love. My body had nothing left except surrender, and my heart was so full that no words or actions could express the strong presence of God. I simply broke down and cried on my knees.

I am too weak

The most profound takeaway, in my heart during this encounter with God, is that I am too weak to hold God’s true love and power. I was thinking about myself—when I was hustling in the real world, all I wanted was to be powerful, respected, and considered important. When I was hustling in the emotional world, all I wanted was to be loved unconditionally. And this morning, God showed me that I can easily receive these two most desired things that I have fought so hard for with every fabric of my soul.

And when he handed them to me, my body and soul dropped deep down onto the floor, the weight of true love and true power was beyond what I could bear.