Body Signals
I’ve noticed that my period has been getting delayed longer and longer over the past six months. While I don’t feel any other symptoms, I’m starting to get concerned. I hope that when I return to China in January, I’ll be able to see a good traditional doctor to get this checked out.
Lord, You gave me this body, and I know I need to take better care of it. Sometimes, I push it too hard and overwork it without realizing it. I believe these symptoms are my body’s way of trying to tell me that I need to pay more attention to its needs. Yes, Lord, I will listen. Thank You for giving me a healthy body and for all it does to carry me through life. I’m sorry for the times I’ve mistreated it. I will strive to do better.
My Fears
My mother-in-law has a huge family, and they all live so close to each other on the island. Spending time with them stirs up a fear in me—that since Riley and I don’t have children, I might grow old alone without many people around me. But at the same time, I know I don’t want to have children just to fill that void of fear.
Oh Lord, I trust that there’s a reason You’ve placed in my heart a lack of desire for children and the pull toward a simpler life. I trust Your plan. I pray that You help me find comfort in You at all times, and that I rest in the peace You provide.