Lying in bed, I tried to fall asleep early, but couldn’t. Instead of scrolling aimlessly on the internet, I decided to come here and talk to You.

I really appreciate this idea the Holy Spirit gave me. Every time I’m able to resist using my phone for nothing, I come here to write instead. Writing has become a meaningful way for me to reconnect with inner peace, rather than chasing fleeting pleasures that only stimulate my brain.

Talking about poems with Riley recently reminded me how every time I feel like I’ve covered enough ground on this spiritual journey, the Lord reveals even more. For the very first time, my husband shared poems he wrote many years ago. Oh my King, the King of the universe, You never cease to amaze me.

One of my favorite old poems that resurfaced in my heart today is So You Want to Be a Writer? by Charles Bukowski. I just love the closing lines:

when it is truly time
and if you have been chosen
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you
there is no other way
and there never was

The raw passion he describes moves me so deeply. It awakens a purity that only God truly sees, a purity He has planted in every one of us. But this world seems to do everything it can to stain that purity with sin and distraction. I used to think it was easy to live simply and purely because we were all children once and it felt so natural. But I see now how wrong I was. This world pulls every string to keep us from being who God created us to be.

Walking with the Lord has awakened that part of me so profoundly. I feel a fire inside growing stronger with each step. Yes, there is no other way and there never was. He is the way, the truth, and the life. He is the one who ignited this fire in me, a passion for truth and a longing to return to purity.