Let him plan my life

My grandma is getting quite old, and her body is starting to show various symptoms. Lately, I’ve been feeling a strong pull to return to China and spend more time with my family. I shared these thoughts with my husband last night and mentioned that I’d like to go alone this time. He understands, and this way he can continue working since he can’t do it remotely. 

We’ve been together for almost 10 years, and the longest we’ve been apart is just two weeks. Part of me is actually excited about this extended time apart—I believe it could be good for both of us. 

As for the timing and how everything will unfold, I’ve completely surrendered that to God. All I have is a heart that longs to share love with my family, and I can feel that He has received it and is already working on a plan for me. This week’s devotional study has truly opened up a new perspective for me.

Requires a heart fully open

“What am I feeling when I hear You say to me, ‘I like what I see’? What do I do with those feelings now? What do You have for me? Help me receive it. Help me receive You. Right here. Right now. Amen.” 

One of the key lessons I’ve taken away from this year’s study is learning to love myself for God’s sake. For the first time, I’m daring to imagine how God sees me in this very moment. It’s a new lesson, one that doesn’t require thinking but rather a heart fully open to feel.