I’ve been adjusting to the new pace of life since returning home to China. It’s been so long since I lived here, and I’ve grown in ways that make me feel quite different now. Life in China isn’t something I personally enjoy, which was part of the reason I left in the first place.

There’s a strange feeling in my heart that I’m still trying to unpack. On one hand, I feel sorrowful for how people live here, yet they don’t seem to see it the way I do. Perhaps it’s just me being overly empathetic. The hardest part is seeing the people I care about living under so much pressure and fear, without truly connecting with God.

I love the Lord deeply and want them to experience the same love I’ve received in my life. But I know I can’t force anything. Oh Lord, please keep my heart patient. Help me to be a bridge between their hearts and Yours. Show me the ways in which I can make the greatest impact on their lives.