The part of me that always wants the best outcome comes from a good place, a desire for excellence and goodness. But because of that desire, my mind labels my efforts as superior, giving me the illusion of having the moral high ground. Over time, I’ve begun to see the flaw in this way of thinking. There is no perfect outcome that my mind longs for—perfection, as I define it, doesn’t exist. Chasing it only leads to disappointment. That disappointment often spills out onto the people and things around me, especially when they don’t seem to strive as hard as I do. But the truth is, they’re not failing me, it was never their goal to fulfill my vision. It’s always been about what I wanted. I now realize that I can’t claim the higher ground if my standard is based only on my own ideas of what’s best. When I do that, I’m not aligned with God’s plan, I’m disrupting it.

I need to break free from the false expectation of being filled once and for all with a perfect result. Instead, I need to walk in humility, asking only for “daily bread”—just as Jesus taught. He didn’t say “eternal bread” because we’re meant to depend on God moment by moment. I must guard my mind from daily and hourly temptations, not obsess over yearly or lifelong outcomes. That kind of striving is a trap my mind sets, convincing me that I must secure everything at once. But that’s not my role. Only God sees and plans that far ahead.

And thank You Lord, for bring me the message I need at this moment. True humility is slippery, once we become aware of it and start feeling good about being humble, pride sneaks in through the back door. Even trying to fight pride can become a source of pride. But the key is perspective: true humility isn’t thinking less of yourself, but thinking of yourself less. When we can laugh at our own pride loops and let go of self-focus, humility becomes real and grounded.