Yesterday turned out to be exhausting, leaving me tired and sleepy. Looking back, I have been trying to understand what really happened. One thing I can see now is that when I slipped into “work mode,” my body tensed up, perhaps out of habit. That tension consumes a lot of my inner peace and leaves me restless. After that, everything starts to feel soul-draining. The restlessness even followed me into my dreams, where it took shape as scenes of murder, rape, violence and chaos. A restless heart had created a chaotic world, and that is exactly how I felt when I woke up this morning.

But this is not one of those tormenting loops life used to throw at me. This feels like a training ground my Father has led me into. I have been praying boldly, asking Him to break me down so He can rebuild me anew. I know this process will happen again and again until I am fully united with Him. So now, I am choosing to embrace it instead of shying away.

Every time I think I have understood something or reached a milestone in my journey, the Holy Spirit brings a new surprise. Today was one of those moments. I heard the words loud and clear: Dare you live like this?

I have been challenged again. I thought I was brave enough and had worked hard enough on my spiritual muscles, but I see now that I am not there yet. My answer is still yes, even though I can feel fear and obstacles lingering in my heart. It sounds challenging, yet behind this bold question I felt a warm hand on my shoulder. It was a challenge tied to something so good, something He has been waiting to give me. I know it is time for me to rise to a new level and step into a deeper purity.

I will embrace my challenges. Thank You, Father, for sending me guidance and leading me forward. I love You with all of my heart, both the new one You are shaping and the old, tired one You are healing.

只要我愿意，我可以随时彻底离开这个世界—不是用死亡，而是改变意识纬度。

如果我觉得它有意义，它便存在；
如果我认为它有价值，它便大量存在。

当心看不到价值和意义的时候，它就会退下，消失因为我不需要用幻相欺骗自己，因为心不再需要虚相来隔离实相，ta 终于准备好了活在实相中。

今天接收到的挑战，让我害怕也让我振奋。我愿意拥抱它！