Today we talked to a realtor I met through a church event. She is really helpful, and we both feel good about working with her.

Tonight we watched the show “The Chosen.” In the episodes that tell the story of Simon, one of the issues his wife pointed out was that he always tried to do things by himself. I recognize that trait in myself as well. After several rounds of disappointment in trying to purchase land, I quickly drew hard conclusions:

“There is no way I can do this now, so just forget about it and stop trying.”

“I believed that all the realtors and bankers just wanted to make money and weren’t really helping, so don’t have hope in them.”

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This part of me was reflected in Simon tonight. But the truth is, there is always help and hope. As long as my heart remains open and patient, I can see them the right way. God is always with me, it’s just me who is not seeing Him.

I am so thankful for how far I’ve come to be where I am today. No matter what happens, God is the only thing I truly want in the end. I don’t want what I want, I want what Jesus wants for me. Nothing matters if I don’t have Him.