I sat in the sauna for 20 minutes for today’s solitude practice.

The more I try to shut off the voice in my head, the louder it becomes. God guided me to just accept everything and watch them flow like clouds in the sky.

Then, I gain a new angle to analyze them. I noticed that 90% of my mind’s activities go to future planning. If it’s not for work, l’m immediately thinking about what to eat tonight or what to do tomorrow.

My heart is rarely in the NOW. But God only meets me in the NOW.

I need to watch my future thoughts more closely and shut them down quickly before they spiral.

All I need to know is that God holds my future in His hands and only His hand, not my paycheck, not my husband.

The only One who holds my future loves me unconditionally.