This morning, the thought of health insurance suddenly came to mind, and I decided to follow that intuition and look for a plan for 2025. Since hitting the road in 2021, my husband and I have been financially unstable, living with only our faith in God to sustain us and without any backup plans. But now, after over a year of full-time work, I felt it was time to take a responsible step for our future.

Recognizing My Mindset and Seeking Divine Help

As I began shopping for insurance, I immediately recognized the familiar feeling of frustration creeping in—a task I’d already labeled as hair-pulling. But then, I caught that thought and invited the Holy Spirit to guide me. What’s hard for me is easy for God. With that prayer, the process began to flow more smoothly. I quickly familiarized myself with Washington insurance options and created profiles for us on the marketplace. Yet as I narrowed down the options, my old habit of wanting to know everything and pick the “perfect” choice started tangling up my mind.

Letting Go and Trusting God’s Guidance

The truth is, I’ll never know everything or make the “perfect” decision on my own. As I called around, critical thoughts started popping up like popcorn in a microwave. I hung up on one company after reading a few negative reviews. With another, I almost dismissed an agent because of a heavy accent, assuming it was an overseas call center—but I pressed on and ended up getting helpful information. Finally, I paused, realizing I was slipping back into my old, exhausting pattern of decision-making: overanalyzing every detail, which only led to growing frustration.

Since I’ve started talking to God like a real person, I’ve come up with a little “coin” method with the Holy Spirit when I need specific guidance. I simply let the coin “decide” for me, and incredibly, it led me back to the first company I’d dismissed. When I connected with an agent, he turned out to be exceptionally helpful—even recommending a company he didn’t represent! With his guidance, I was able to narrow it down to one choice, and just like that, the task was complete.

Reflecting on this, I see how much unnecessary effort I often put into decisions, wearing myself down and blocking God’s path to bring me the best.

Trust (I’m learning) is worship, the rest is warfare! Amen!