There are many events unfolding in my heart right now, yet none of them require my participation. I’ve been placed in the position of a witness for some time, and that’s exactly what I prayed for. I no longer want to see things through the filter of “me.”

It feels strangely foreign, yet deeply familiar at the same time. My mind is making one last desperate attempt to bombard me with old ways of thinking and reacting. But thank You, my Lord, the anchor of peace You planted in my soul has grown into a tall, strong tree that stands firm when the winds blow.

I have been finding my strength in silence, and the longer I remain there, the more I see that “me” is the problem of “my world.” So I pray that the clarity You have brought into my heart will live on. I choose to lay down “me” and release all the people and things I have held hostage. I am willing to trade my life for blessing upon the world. I do!

827 让我想起第一次 say “I do”的时刻。今天我更深刻的体验了这个词的含义。这一刻，我泪流满面。我看到的是一个没有爸爸的“我”在哭泣。这一刻我明白了，最近发生的这些事件的意义，B 的出现，老公一而再的受挫，这一切都是我的投射。这一切投射的根源来自我心中“没有爸爸”的那个巨大的伤口和黑洞。今天我的心看见了，她想说：I do have a Father, He is the Almighty! So I release all my brokenness, and I let it go. And let them be free.”