I woke up completely drained, overwhelmed by a wave of anger and heartbreak I haven’t felt in a long time. Being in that mindset consumed all my energy, and I absolutely hate it. I don’t know how to fix this. I know how to maintain a surface-level, fake relationship, but that’s not what I want, not at all.

Deep down, I struggle with feelings of deep dislike for my mom, and sometimes even hatred. The thought of being expected to help her and live with her fills me with discomfort to my very core. I feel stuck, unable to figure out how to move forward or back away from this place I’m in. I’m exhausted.

Oh Lord, I need You. Please, come to my aid!