Journey With God – belovedbackground.com

I do!

There are many events unfolding in my heart right now, yet none of them require my participation. I’ve been placed in the position of a witness for some time, and that’s exactly what I prayed for. I no longer want to see things through the filter of “me.” It feels

August 27, 2025

Disheartening

Yesterday we went on a 15 mile hike with friends. We started at 7 am and did not get back home until 8 pm. It was a long and exhausting day, but my heart is full of gratitude for the time spent with good people and for the breathtaking beauty

August 25, 2025

unshakable truth

Oh my dear Lord, I am truly rejoicing in the new heart You have given me. Today, my biggest client complained for the third time this year that his business is struggling and asked me to watch my hours. Yet my heart did not react with fear or anxiety. Instead,

August 22, 2025

My training

After recently training with the Holy Spirit, I’ve gained a new level of awareness. I’ve begun to notice disturbances so early that I can avoid entering a stressful cycle altogether. Just yesterday and again this morning, both during work hours, I experienced this. My mind was fully occupied, and in

August 21, 2025

horrible dreams

Woke up again from horrible dreams. The devil is really trying hard to intimidate me through my dreams. Last night it was one of those rare layered dreams with three levels where I kept trying to wake up from one bad situation only to realize I was entering an even

August 20, 2025

I love You

It’s funny how the same message we heard in last Sunday’s sermon showed up in the show we’re watching, Jesus truly is everywhere! I’m grateful that I was able to keep His peace in my heart through today’s challenges. I’m determined to make this my priority, rather than chasing after

August 19, 2025

I Dare

Today I felt deeply in sync with the Holy Spirit, with peace dwelling in my heart without ceasing. I truly delight in the flow of days like this. Yet even within this wonderful experience, I could sense fear lurking, trying to throw anxious thoughts my way. But one line kept

August 18, 2025

Yank them

Today has been a productive day. I chopped some wood, and Riley and I worked on the vehicle, we finally fixed the overheating issue. Thank You, Lord, for sending that stranger to us on the roadside. After so many failed attempts on our own, he showed us the way. I

August 16, 2025

would rather starve

Since yesterday, my inner rhythm has been reset to a more peaceful pace, and I love where my heart is resting right now. I see with greater clarity what is happening before me, and I know how to face each thing as it comes. I thank the Holy Spirit for

August 15, 2025

Dare you live like this?

Yesterday turned out to be exhausting, leaving me tired and sleepy. Looking back, I have been trying to understand what really happened. One thing I can see now is that when I slipped into “work mode,” my body tensed up, perhaps out of habit. That tension consumes a lot of

August 14, 2025

Everything I think

When I work, You are working. When I sleep, You are working. Everything I think I have failed at is really You still paving the road. Everything I think I have gained is really You closing an old chapter and opening a new one. Everything I think I have lost

August 13, 2025

struggles in my mind

The past few days have been both challenging and rewarding. The closer I draw to the Father, the more I feel the struggles in my mind. The flesh is weak, and the mind is constantly working, judging, planning, and expecting. It is a loop I have been trapped in. I

August 12, 2025

gentle yet powerful

Oh my King, thank You for these past few days of teaching and bringing new experiences into my life. I am so grateful to witness Your great love. The way You move in my life is gentle yet powerful, and the way You teach is deeply personal yet all-encompassing. I

August 10, 2025

there is no other way

Lying in bed, I tried to fall asleep early, but couldn’t. Instead of scrolling aimlessly on the internet, I decided to come here and talk to You. I really appreciate this idea the Holy Spirit gave me. Every time I’m able to resist using my phone for nothing, I come

August 4, 2025

Holy Lessons

Dream I’ve been incarnated on earth many, many times—moving quickly through life after life. And in each one, I carried unresolved pain in my relationships. My heart was broken, and I found myself pleading with the Lord: Why did all of this happen to me? What did I do wrong?

August 3, 2025

Nothing is more worthy

Yesterday I felt the old version of me trying to slip back into my new pace of life. And today I woke up feeling unusually drowsy, like my body just wouldn’t cooperate. I opened my eyes at 6:30am but couldn’t keep them open, so I went back to sleep for

August 1, 2025

Ironically Funny

This past week, my days have been slower than usual. In the past, slow days like these would fill me with anxiety, worrying about where the money would come from, fearing that without more income, the life I dreamed of would be at risk. But thanks to the Holy Spirit,

July 31, 2025

Show me

Reading Sent today, I deeply resonated with what the authors said about the two things that block the Holy Spirit from fully dwelling in us: sin and self-effort. I’ve been noticing this in my own daily routines. I often start with “I want to…” instead of pausing to ask, “Holy

July 30, 2025

The wilderness The true heaven

Thank You, Lord, for giving me today’s bread through this video. “Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.” — Matthew 4:4 David’s wilderness years were filled with hardship, an anointed king reduced to nothing. Yet it was in that

July 29, 2025

基督的三大诱惑

每天的梦里有了自动清理的潜意识开始运作，4年前那个“见证者”一词重新获得了新的生命。这个“见证者”不光是如如不动在看的觉知，也是那个不断在接受奇迹治愈力量的存在。基督的三大诱惑生 – 面包死 – 高崖我 – 荣耀时间的长度   过去和未来是时间的两端，在那里逗留的越久时间就越长。永恒是那个在当下不断摆脱起点和终点存在。

July 28, 2025

unnecessary

Today is office moving day. I noticed that whenever I’m around other people, a part of my inner stillness gets stirred, and it feels consuming. I realize it’s often unnecessary, and I want to be more mindful of it. It usually comes down to two things: • Worrying that I

July 27, 2025

a new heart

Today in the car, I said out loud, “I’m so glad my life isn’t in my control.” It felt almost strange to hear myself say that with such joy and pride in my voice. But it’s true, and I’m genuinely thankful that this is where my heart is now. Each

July 26, 2025

eternal peace

Morning Another day waking up from a deep, heavy sleep, my body is definitely going through something, though I’m not sure what. Still, I trust the Holy Spirit is guiding this according to God’s best for me.A line from the book Sent spoke directly to my heart: the author described

July 25, 2025

I was never nobody

Dreams Since I returned from the trip, I’ve noticed my sleep has been unusually deep and intense. My dreams feel full of invasive stories, some of them familiar, like nightmares, but this time there’s a new layer to them. Despite the heaviness, I can sense the Holy Spirit moving through

July 24, 2025

the power of Your love

The Cincinnati trip has been over for a few days now, but I’m still unpacking all the lessons the Holy Spirit stirred in me and all the miracles God worked into this journey. It was a project-based trip, yet to the Father, it’s never really about what we’re doing. It’s

July 23, 2025

all I desire is You

Oh Father, once again my heart is filled with Your all-encompassing love. Every time I feel myself being knocked off the path of light, You come to my rescue. Last night, the strange scent Riley and I spoke about made us wonder if there’s more going on than meets the

July 15, 2025

Isaac

Today I went to Seattle for a video shoot with the Orbit team. It was such an enjoyable experience. The tiredness from my past frequent travel faded already, since I normally work alone, so whenever I get to collaborate with people I like, I feel genuinely excited and energized. We

July 12, 2025

Holy Rejoicing

Thank You, Lord, for arranging the meeting with Elaine. Though it was canceled once before, I now see it wasn’t the right time until today. This morning, the presence of the Holy Spirit was so powerful, we kept breaking into tears again and again. My heart rejoices in the sacred

July 11, 2025

Guilty Pleasure

As my days become more steady and peaceful, I find myself longing to share more joy with Riley. One of our favorite ways to connect is through playing video games, it’s fun, lighthearted, and brings us laughter. But because we often lose track of time and end up staying up

July 10, 2025

stronger urge to express

Since 7/7, I’ve felt a much stronger urge to express the experience I’ve been going through, so strong that my brain has started thinking and writing in two languages. It’s fascinating to notice how I perceive different things depending on the language I use. There may be some science behind

July 10, 2025

It’s just… perfect

I’m almost recovered from my flu, but tonight Riley started to show some similar symptoms. I’m praying for his swift healing and that his experience will be gentler than mine. Thank You, Lord, for always watching over us. Since yesterday, I’ve sensed a shift in my spirit, one I’ve longed

July 8, 2025

redeem it all

Dream Dark, enclosed room with dim red lighting — eerie, almost suffocating atmosphere. Presence of WWII-era commandos and a Prime Minister giving me orders to distribute flyers — a sense of control, authority, or manipulation. In the background, shadowy figures resembling Batman or featureless black mannequins — silent, watching, possibly

July 7, 2025

Laying everything down on the altar

It’s been days since I last wrote in my journal, but Lord, You know my heart is always with You. I’ve discovered an intimate connection with You that no condition can ever break. I treasure this new level of longing my heart holds for You. I used to worry that

July 6, 2025

simply free

Anyone who tries to save their life will lose it. But whoever gives up their life for me will find true life. – (Matthew 16:25) The dark season has passed. Now I stand again, steady in peace and clarity. I finally understand this verse in a way I never did

June 26, 2025

Victory

Oh Lord, my heart is filled with gratitude for all the grace You have given me. The days go on and life repeats with different events. Nothing new is gained under the sun, yet only You know how much I am truly receiving each day. Your love and guidance have

June 23, 2025

My New Heart

The Devil Is Losing the Battle It’s been a week since I came here to talk with You, my Father. But You know that You are always in my heart. In every breath I take, You are there. Writing is simply another way I spend time with You. Riley and

June 10, 2025

The Meaning of Giving

Feeling Betrayed One of the recent fights I had with Riley really shook me. Right now, the only word I can find for it is betrayal. As Jim Caviezel said, “We do not love Jesus enough,” and I feel the weight of that truth. I carry guilt for my own

June 3, 2025

Conversation with AI – White Lotus

Me: It’s really scary to accept my true identity as a child of God—that I carry the same power He has. AI: That’s a powerful reflection, Zoey — and yes, it is scary. You’re not alone in feeling that way. Truly accepting your identity as a child of God —

June 1, 2025

The devil has used the best parts of me against me

The Passion of the Christ Last night, I couldn’t sleep. After Riley went to bed, I ended up watching The Passion of the Christ by myself. It was heartbreaking to witness my Savior being tortured and crucified, but at the same time, the story was profoundly powerful. Afterward, I watched

May 30, 2025

pressure and burden

This heavy feeling continues to linger. A conversation with Riley gave me a glimpse into the source of this burden. I’ve never learned how to care deeply without also carrying the weight of the problems that come with it, especially the people I care the most. That’s why I’m always

May 29, 2025

not meant to fix it

I don’t even know how many days it’s been, this persistent sadness in my heart just won’t go away. The last time I felt this kind of unshakable heaviness was when my dad passed away. But this time, it seemed to come out of nowhere. I’ve searched my mind for

May 28, 2025

choose differently

Oh Holy Spirit,Today I call upon You in prayer once more, a prayer You’ve already heard from the depths of my heart. I’ve been sitting with it, letting it stir within me. Throughout my life, You have been guiding me, shaping me, transforming my heart. Yet, in my human weakness,

May 24, 2025

sit and rest

Faith doesn’t prevent fatigue, it just gives me a place to sit. – Steven Furtick It’s been a week since I got home. The “new me,” or maybe the “wrong me,” has stayed with me throughout these days. I’ve felt strangely indifferent to things, yet calm and steady at the

May 22, 2025

Holy Spirit empathy

Ego empathy says: “I feel your pain because I am also wounded.” Holy Spirit empathy says: “I see your pain, but I also see the light in you, and I stand with you in that light.” Spirit-aligned empathy phrases: 1. “I’m here with you, and I trust there’s peace and

May 18, 2025

New Me or Wrong Me

There’s so much I want to say, but I’m afraid the words won’t be enough to express it all. Dark and Silent Retreat I was invited to a three-day dark and silent retreat, something completely new for me. Cutting off the world for three days felt both unreal and refreshing.

May 15, 2025

神性的表达

谢谢宇宙爸爸这两天密集的显相以此记录，心永远铭记家的实相谢谢今日你送我天使的眼泪让我再次见证你爱的奇迹谢谢你送我一位“灵性的母亲”谢谢你送我一位“灵性的女儿”谢谢你送我一位“灵性的姐妹”我曾生生世世因家庭破碎轮回的那颗痛苦的心在今天众位同修的天使眼泪中被擦亮了当我在自我黑暗孤独的世界里死去的时候我便收获了永远不会分离的家人宇宙里没有任何一处地方你不曾替我探过路宇宙里没有任何一个我爱的人会被你落下众生永远被你爱着我永远无需担忧我永远无需计划行走人间我是你神性的窗口脱离轮回你是我神性的归宿生来我是你神性的表达回归我是你神性的圆满

May 9, 2025

Ask and it will be given to you

Thank You, my Father, for sending this message to my soul. You are always faithful. You are always good. When things seem to fall apart, it is not punishment or loss. It is Your grace, making space for what is real and life-giving. The pain I felt so deeply came

May 6, 2025

two beautiful days

Thank You for arranging two beautiful days with my aunt and her friend. I truly felt Your presence and blessing through the conversations we shared. Our hearts are hungry for holy connection. Thank You for loving us, Father. Now, I see a new lesson before me. As I overcome the

May 5, 2025