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ultimate fulfillment

Nothing compares to the love of Christ Before I experienced Christ, I was searching everywhere for a sense of contentment. Losing my father at a young age and having a strained relationship with my mother left me craving love from men, which led me into a downward spiral and made

July 29, 2024

Ladder Of Humility

St. Benedict’s Ladder Of Humility STEP1 Fear of God and Mindfulness of Him STEP2 Doing God’s Will (Not Your Own or Other People’s） STEP3 Willing to Subject Ourselves to Direction of Others STEP4 Patient to Accept the Difficulty of Others STEP5 Radical Honesty to Others About Our Weaknesses/Faults STEP6 Deeply

July 28, 2024

Punishment

Last Night Writing has become a beloved part of my life. Instead of wasting time on social media, I now use my moments, even in the bathroom, to write mini blogs. Last night, while showering, I thought, “I need to hurry so I can post it.” Immediately after that thought,

July 27, 2024

Please don’t let me go

Nightmares This morning, I woke up in horror again, marking the third consecutive night of nightmares. Each night, the theme was eerily similar: I was attacked by ghosts or bad people, unable to fight back or escape. I felt hopeless and alone, and I didn’t remember to call on God

July 26, 2024

In serving I received love

I went to Bible study today, and as always, I loved it! Before I go in, I usually practice in my head what I want to say. In that process, the evil judge in my head often wants me to impress others rather than be honest with myself. Today, our

July 25, 2024

The more I know God

These two lines from today’s reading stood out to me: “The more I know about God, the less I know about Him.” – Emotionally Healthy Spirituality “This is the ultimate knowledge about God: to know that we do not know.” – St. Thomas Aquinas Walking with God has opened my

July 24, 2024

God is the creator and sustainer

This morning, I got up early to host my online group meeting. Twenty people attended, and I shared my experiences of encountering Jesus. They seemed touched and inspired by what I had to say. After the meeting, one of the ladies texted me, saying, “Zoey, as I was listening to

July 23, 2024

God’s perfect timing

Legal Papper My loan has been pre-approved, but now I need to gather a long list of documents. I also need to prepare a similar list of documents for my mom to help me renew my Chinese ID. On top of that, my business partner is handling some legal matters,

July 22, 2024

walks on water

Today, we watched the final episode of The Chosen season three. The scene where Peter walks on water with Jesus and their conversation was incredibly moving. My husband and I were both in tears for a while. When it finished, we sat in silence for a few minutes, letting our

July 21, 2024

do something about it quickly

They have seen, as Karl Barth notes, that “the root and origin of sin is the arrogance in which man wants to be his own and his neighbor’s judge.” Before we go through the Wall, we prefer to exercise the right to determine good and evil rather than leave this

July 20, 2024

heavenly day

Today is one of those heavenly days. The seller accepted our offer for the property. My husband and I went on a beautiful hike by a lake. We grabbed delicious subs and had a picnic lunch by the water. After lunch, we took a little nap on the grass under

July 19, 2024

True Freedom and Power

True Freedom “True freedom comes when we no longer need to be special in other people’s eyes because we know we are loveable and good enough in Christ.” — Emotionally Healthy Spirituality My heart overflows with joy as I read this; the truth of the message illuminates my entire world.

July 18, 2024

Lord will be greatly praised

No is good Many things happened yesterday, and I’m still trying to get on top of everything. A parcel we had backed out of, hoping to get it at a cheaper price, resurfaced for the third time. The last buyer, their backup offer, backed out because he was diagnosed with

July 17, 2024

Free me from living in illusion

A message that resonated with me from today’s devotional is that burnout occurs when we give what we don’t have or consistently live as our false self. One common symptom is making too many commitments. I definitely struggle with this. While I might be better than before, my old false

July 16, 2024

Who makes everything happen

Today, several developments made us feel like we suddenly have more options for purchasing a property. I felt excited and motivated again, and my mind immediately jumped into “Doing Mode.” However, I decided to hold back on all the actions my mind was urging me to take. I’ve been learning

July 15, 2024

What I want to do

I find my spirit refills quickly when I have meaningful conversations with people. I love talking about my faith and sharing my experiences with others, and this increasingly feels like a calling to me. I have been practicing this in various ways over the past few years. Spreading the gospel

July 14, 2024

I know better now

This morning, my husband and I were checking our trucks. It’s fun to do this together because he loves cars, and we might need one soon. In the afternoon, I was thinking about the property again and trying to submit my concerns to God. A negative thought crept in: “You

July 13, 2024

obey Your will

We just started a feasibility period on a small lot, and today’s general inspection report doesn’t look good. So, I’m once again on the verge of feeling disappointed. Having been through this multiple times, I’ve gotten better at handling it. It’s a bit easier, but I’m still feeling unhappy about

July 12, 2024

God’s instruction

Yesterday, I posted an announcement for the online group I plan to run, and I already received responses from 20 people who want to join. Last night, I shared some concerns with my husband. Knowing that I’m not doing it for myself this time leaves me unable to prepare anything,

July 11, 2024

I can hear God

In the past few months, I have been transformed by God from within. It all started at the Sisterhood retreat. Seeing all the sisters pray like warriors taught me the power of prayer, so I followed. I connected with Anna and Julie as my guides. Anna is not older but

July 10, 2024

This is How It’s Done

After I received the calling from God to spread His word to as many people as possible, I began preparing for this mission. I told my husband about it and drafted a blog today to announce the online group I will be leading, ready to post tomorrow. I have nothing

July 9, 2024

When God Doesn’t Heal You

Love Worship Standing in church with hundreds of other believers, worshiping God through prayers and songs on Sundays, has brought me countless profound encounters with Him. It’s truly one of my favorite things to do on earth. Before I became a Christian, I rarely cried. However, I’ve shed most of

July 8, 2024

Everything I see will lose color

Today, my husband and I both felt quite dull and heavy for no specific reason. Just one of those days! I don’t like it since my natural state is happy and chirping. We took a nap in the afternoon, and it helped a little. A post I saw on Facebook

July 7, 2024

God is on the move

This morning, my husband sent me an image, and for some reason, I forwarded it to a friend I hadn’t talked to in forever. Somehow, it was exactly what she needed. I got to learn a bit about what she’s going through, and she shared that she is not ready

July 6, 2024

There is more

I am still rejoicing the fact that my husband and I conquered a 15-mile hike up a 6,644-foot mountain yesterday. Before the hike, I set a personal goal in my heart and submitted it to God. I know God doesn’t need a goal to do His work, but I needed

July 5, 2024

Hike Twin Sisters

Today, My husband and I hiked Twin Sisters with some friends, which was probably the most challenging thing I’ve ever done. It took us 15 hours to conquer the Twin Sisters. As soon as I got into the car, I broke down and cried, that’s how tough it was. My

July 4, 2024

For God is with me

OCD hits again I have a type of OCD that has been bothering me for a while. I keep wanting to change things, and the more I change, the more improvements I want to make, which leads to more change. Since becoming RVers, my desk has been very small, but

July 3, 2024

shine as if there is no other

In nature, we can’t find two identical leaves, yet our society constantly tries to label and mold us into the same model. When someone is successful, people often try to replicate their path. By comparing ourselves to others, we attempt to reshape our unique, one-of-a-kind selves into something common and

July 2, 2024

focus on my talents

This morning, I got up at 7 a.m. and had an hour-and-a-half counseling session with my client. It left me feeling very light and peaceful. I then spent an hour cleaning and organizing the house, which also made me feel light and peaceful. Later, my husband and I discussed getting

July 1, 2024

Don’t serve the wrong master

Last night, I got deeply absorbed in my art. I recognized the state I was in—I couldn’t stop even though I was tired. There was pressure to finish quickly. Once I thought I was done, I immediately moved on to something else, letting that pressure continue. I ended up going

June 30, 2024

How dare you

Morning I keep realizing that my own thoughts are the main disturbance to my inner peace, pulling me away from living in the present moment. I went to the gym today and meditated for 20 minutes in the sauna. Amidst the heat and sweat, I could hear my heartbeat and

June 29, 2024

I don’t serve you anymore

I don’t serve you anymore I often wake up with an anxious feeling, hearing a nagging voice inside me saying: “Get up quickly, go back to your work.” “Double-check things, there must be something you missed yesterday, and it will cause big problems if you don’t.” These thoughts are deeply

June 28, 2024

A new voice

Morning I started watching the show “The Chosen.” I just finished season 1, my soul lights up during every episode. This is my first show about Jesus, and my heart rejoices in His character. All the disciples kept asking questions because their hearts were swollen with fear. But Jesus showed

June 27, 2024

There is no catch

Morning This morning was one of those when I got up to go to the bathroom and could never fall back to sleep. At 3:30 am, I was just lying in bed, swamped with thoughts. Instead of falling into that black hole of thoughts, I kept repeating in my heart:

June 26, 2024

to live like Jesus

Today is another slow day. I don’t feel anxious of unproductive days anymore. On the contrary, I am grateful for God arranging those days for me to reflect and really enjoy quiet time. I practiced to include God into my trivial decision-making process. Instead of pick a direction jumping right

June 25, 2024

mighty forces will come to your aid

Today I didn’t get much deep sleep last night, kept waking up. The spiritual wind I felt yesterday really stirred me. I felt pretty drained today, the same feeling I had during the practice of solitude when I was fighting against the darkness within me. But this time is quite

June 24, 2024

nothing but standing on holy ground

Morning During the worship song today, I broke down, crying non-stop. I think this is what people call a “Jesus moment.” It all started with a prayer question: “Lord, where do you want me to go? How do you want me to serve?” Since I felt my calling to be

June 23, 2024

don’t want what I want

Today we talked to a realtor I met through a church event. She is really helpful, and we both feel good about working with her. Tonight we watched the show “The Chosen.” In the episodes that tell the story of Simon, one of the issues his wife pointed out was

June 22, 2024

Everything is perfect

Surrender Control Walking with God requires obedience. Like many others, I struggle with being obedient. Our culture loudly advocates for being a strong, independent woman and not letting others tell you what to do, which is the complete opposite of walking with God. I have experienced enough to fully trust

June 21, 2024

four-step cycle

Today, the craving to own our property resurfaced. This time, I am more aware of how my mind reacts to it. I have been stuck in this four-step cycle for a while, and each time I get stuck, only God can truly pull me out of it. Every time I

June 20, 2024

vigorous but not busy

Dream Both my aunt and my grandpa, two of my very loved family member, are under some kind of relationship attacks. People are constantly putting them in difficult situations, and I was trying to help, but it didn’t work. Journal Proverbs 31 – A Wife of Noble Character I had

June 19, 2024

Willing to do whatever

I easily get frustrated when things aren’t perfect right away. Today’s Bible study was a great reminder that working harder isn’t the solution—patience is. Growing up with a smartphone always in hand, I’ve lost the heart of patience, expecting instant feedback for everything. When the feedback is bad, I keep

June 18, 2024

No relationship can last without Christ

Dream I woke up in the RV to a loud noise outside and peeked out to see three women holding guns and trying to look into the RV. I got super nervous and thought it was some kind of riot. I went to the back, grabbed my gun, and prepared

June 17, 2024

Happy Father’s Day

“God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it.” Ephesians 2:8-9 NLT Today, Pastor Bob revisited this

June 16, 2024

I like myself now

Today, I had the pleasure of meeting Anna again. It’s always refreshing to talk with her. Recently, Julie pointed out that, as extroverts, we get recharged by spending time with others. However, as a Christian, I don’t refuel by socializing with just anyone, I gain energy from being with people

June 15, 2024

Never be a loser

The story about the big toe reminds me of Julie. She once shared that she had broken her toes twice. During the times she was completely disabled and unable to do anything, she deeply felt that she is God’s child, regardless of her actions or abilities. Growing up with a

June 14, 2024

The truth will set you free

Morning “The truth will set you free.” John 8:31-32 NLT Long before I became a Christian, I was living in Beijing, 19 years old, trying to find my identity in this fierce world. One day, I read a phrase somewhere, not in the Bible but in Chinese: “真理只会让你自由” (“The truth

June 13, 2024

He is the only magic

Dream: I was a small business owner located inside a temple, selling incense and Buddha statues for a living. One day, a troubled young boy who appeared on TV shows came in, upset because he wasn’t the main character. He told me he planned to quit his job, go to

June 12, 2024