I woke up with the remnants of unsettling dreams lingering in my mind, visions of an apocalypse where everyone was dying, yet no one listened to my warnings. It felt like I was the only one awake in a world on the brink of disaster. I was overwhelmed by helplessness, trapped in mental illusions crafted by unseen forces. I remained stuck for what felt like an eternity until a small hint of light finally pulled me back.

I felt stuck in reality as well, because things weren’t moving forward fast enough. I wanted my positive impact to wake everyone up, but the reality seemed unchanged. Feeling sad and disappointed, I shifted all my focus to work for the rest of the day.

By the afternoon, the cloud in my mind lifted, and I began to see that things had changed,  just not as quickly or in the way I had hoped. But they were unfolding as they were meant to, and that is usually better than my way.

I realize I still lack patience and hold on too tightly to the outcomes I desire. Oh Lord, bind my hands so I can’t cling to what I grasp so tightly. Force me to look Your way. You have all my permission, I am so tired of this game, this worldly and mental struggle. I want Your peace.