I had lunch and dinner at my grandpa’s place. His daughter’s family joined us for lunch but didn’t stay long, they left right after eating and didn’t return for dinner. There’s tension in the family, but I don’t fully understand why.

Separation and gossip seem to be recurring themes throughout this journey. Every time I talk to my grandpa, I can feel how much resentment he still holds toward my mom and her family. Since I have my own deep love for my dad, it’s easy for me to slip into his perspective, which only adds more resentment toward my mom. I didn’t notice it before, but now I do. I think my emotions have finally settled into a neutral place, allowing me to be a peacemaker rather than a contributor to division. I can’t get swept up in every emotional story I hear, I need to regulate my heart so I can serve the Lord.

As I spend time with different family members, I can feel the weight of the struggles they carry. What concerns me most is that they don’t know the Lord. Father, I surrender all my worries and emotions to You. Please replace with Your love, so that I may carry only light and share it wherever I go. You see my heart today and how much I long to give more. Help me regulate my eagerness and impatience, the urge to fix everything all at once. Instead, give me real strength, the kind that ignites hearts without being distracted by things that don’t matter. Keep me focused and sanctified, so I can do Your work.