Usually, there are 5-20 people who join my small group online. The purpose is to create a space for sharing and mutual support, where we can help one another grow. Most of the time, people do share, but it’s often the same few voices. This morning, we started with six participants, and none of them wanted to share, so I ended up calling it off almost immediately.

Oh Lord, I won’t pretend I’m not disappointed. It would be a complete lie. I felt the same frustration as on the first day I started this group, knowing how valuable and precious your treasure is, yet it seems like they don’t want it. Maybe part of my frustration is tied to my ego, but Lord, you know my true heart. Search it, examine it, and reveal to me what I need to do, and I will follow.

I treasure you like water in the desert—why can’t they see it too?

Oh Lord, if I’m feeling this much disappointment right now, how deeply it must break your heart to be our Lord and see us turn away.