Lost my center

The more time I spend in the quiet, the more I realize how easily I become frazzled. Everything feels like a distraction. From morning till night, my mind rarely settles, constantly jumping from one thing to the next. By the time I notice I’ve lost my center and peace, it’s already too late—my energy is drained, and I slip back into old habits. Whether it’s mindlessly scrolling online or obsessing over unnecessary worries, I find myself pulled away from what truly matters.

My Lord, I thank You. I now see Your hand guiding my life each day. The places I go and the people I meet are all part of this new path You’ve carved for me—leading me to live deeply in Your peace, relying on no one and nothing but You. For the first time in my life, I am unafraid of this unknown, solitary journey. I am ready to walk with You into my next chapter.

Renew me

As I write this journal, Lord, You see the weariness of my soul, caught in the same cycle of suffering, chasing after worldly things and weighed down by endless worries. I am exhausted—tired of battling the same struggles each day, tired of how drained I feel from this fight. It’s as if a part of me dies daily, constantly searching for new hope just to keep moving forward. I long for a completely new way of living. Oh Lord, show me the way! Teach me how to reach it. I know it’s possible because I feel Your holy wind stirring in my soul—I know You are already clearing a path for me. But I want You to know how deeply eager I am to arrive there. 

Take my heart, and give me Yours.  

Take my eyes, and give me Yours.  

Take my mind, and give me Yours.  

Take my love, and give me Yours.  

Whatever needs to be renewed, cut it from me, and plant Your true beings within.