My heart is heavy with pain today, and my body has fallen ill as well. To avoid spreading the virus to everyone, I decided to move to a hotel. I see this as the Lord’s way of giving me space to let my heart breathe.

The tangled pain between me and my mom, my mom and my aunt, and the three of us together feels overwhelming. We’re supposed to love each other as family, but all I can sense is the resentment they hold toward each other. And because of me, they are forced to be together, which only deepens the tension.

Oh Lord, I know You are with me and that You hear my cries. I want to love, but my heart feels so broken, so lacking in Your light. It longs to be whole and to be loved. Lord, I need You. Please guide me through this and fill me with Your peace and love.