I’ve been settling into my childhood life again, reliving days with my mom and aunt. So many memories, old habits, and feelings have resurfaced. I can clearly see that this is a second chance the Lord has arranged for me, to face the lessons I once left behind, the ones I’ve been running from for so long.

Reading The Screwtape Letters, I now deeply understand its message: how a mere dose of reality can pull us far from the Lord. If the enemy can keep us distracted from spiritual essentials long enough, the result is division, isolation, and ultimately, destruction. And in this, the enemy has been remarkably successful for a very, very long time.

Oh Lord, I see so many people here trapped in the heavy dose of reality, and I know You see it too. I know that no one in the universe longs to rescue them more than You do. I am just a weak human, Your humble servant, yet my heart desires to help and participate in every way I can. But I am so frail, even as I write this journal, I find myself distracted multiple times.

My Heavenly Father, be with me. Guard me, protect me, and hold my hand as I walk with You every step of the way. I am Your loyal servant, and I will fight for You forever. Thank You for the countless ways You have been showing up in my daily life, allowing me to share my story with others. I see hearts opening, souls smiling, and it is the most meaningful, beautiful work I could ever do. I want to keep walking this path. I love You.