The past few days have been both challenging and rewarding. The closer I draw to the Father, the more I feel the struggles in my mind. The flesh is weak, and the mind is constantly working, judging, planning, and expecting. It is a loop I have been trapped in.

I miss and remember those precious days when the Holy Spirit was dwelling so deeply within me, when everything felt light and free. It was as if I were lying on the river of time, carried by the flow of the universe, fully at peace in my existence.

Yet the demands of work, life, and my body keep pulling me back into the struggling mind, where I am trying to survive in this fleeting world while also fighting for my eternal heart. It is not easy. But Lord, again and again You remind me that You are with me, and You are the only One who will forever be with me. Only in Your name do I find salvation, freedom, and peace.

Thank You for preparing my heart this morning so I could face the bigger mistakes I made today with peace. Let the Holy Spirit rest upon me so I may walk in the everlasting way.

不要责怪自己，因为这只会让你去责怪别人。在我犯的错误里，如果我的心不困在自责和抱怨中，这一次错误便是一个我需要为业力剧本承担的重量，是高我用反作用力推我前行，推着我为世界前行。而那份被伤感按下慢放键的情绪，那被孤寂的宁静拉长的时间线，都是在不同的角度磨练着我的意志。