Today is another slow day. I don’t feel anxious of unproductive days anymore. On the contrary, I am grateful for God arranging those days for me to reflect and really enjoy quiet time.

I practiced to include God into my trivial decision-making process. Instead of pick a direction jumping right into doing, I give myself a few mins to feel where my heart is on this and ask God’s guidance. This is very new to me, however I can feel my heart rejoice in this new way of doing things.

Every time I am not sure about something, I just say to God: I don’t want what I want, I just want what You want for me.

For over 30 years, I tried so hard to achieve what I wanted, even in the things I thought I was doing for God or the greater good. Now I can see that a big part of them were still self-oriented.

I truly want to experience a life where I live in God’s will. I want to know what it feels like to live like Jesus.

Father, please be with me, guide me, protect me, and help me stay away from temptations. Talk to me, work in me, and use me to carry out Your will.